I think I'm going to make a few posts about things that have happened recently, instead of shoving them all into one post, so I'm going to start with the one that's on my mind now.
As I mentioned in my intro, I have a crush on a cute coworker. Last night, he came over after I got off work so we could watch Doctor Who. I had prepped dinner before leaving for work (nothing fancy, just a cheap Mexican-esque dish) and my roommate (who got off an hour and a half before me) popped it in the oven when she got home, so it was ready by the time I got home.
I had cleaned a bit in the morning (almost arrived late for work trying to do everything), so I only had to set up the TV in the living room when I got back. I kind of get anxious and go into full blown hostess mode when someone is coming over for the first time (and second, and third, depending on the situation) thanks to my mom always doing that when my friends came over, so I was picking up random pieces of trash and kinda straightening the area as best I could while waiting for him to come over. He felt bad for "eating all my food" as he put it, so he brought over ice cream as a contribution to the dinner. I've been trying to lose weight, but bringing dessert was the only thing he could think of (and I didn't want to make him pay more and buy frozen yogurt or something) so I just had two small scoops when it came time.
We only had time to watch three episodes since he has to work today, so I showed him Blink and the pair of Silence in the Library episodes. I think we'll start on season one next time. I was originally planning to start him on the 11th Doctor, but I gathered from some of our conversations that he'd prefer to start from the beginning. (The few episodes I showed him were just to get him hooked. haha)
My roommate was a little rude, in my opinion, while we were watching the first episode (I think she went to bed before starting the second). She knew he was coming over to watch Doctor Who, and I have no problem with her watching with us or sitting in the living room on her laptop, but for the first few minutes, she was watching a show on her laptop with no headphones. (I kind of wish she would have offered to let us sit on her futon since it was directly in front of the TV (there was no good place to put the TV directly in front of mine), but it's her futon, so I can't really fault her for it.) Then she kept talking during the episode, about how she reacted when she first watched it, or how freaky something was, or even just talking about something on her computer. Occasionally she would loudly exclaim about my cat bugging her (he was being quite the ass last night), when to me a simple no or a shove would have sufficed. Unfortunately, she's kinda headstrong to the point that I'm pretty sure if I pointed out how she was being kind of rude, she would have just shrugged it off because it's her living room, too. I dunno, it's just differences in how we were raised, I guess.
As I mentioned, my cat was being a butt. He was all "Oh! Look at this new person! I want to play with his shoes! Let me smell his face! I want to cuddle then bite him! I want to stare at him while he eats and try to grab a bite!" and when I would try to restrain him, he would just bite the crap out of my hands. My roommate's ferret was pretty curious/annoying too (kept trying to crawl up his pants leg), but she could put her ferret in her cage when she was being too much trouble. I could have shut Vincent in the bathroom, but I would have felt bad, and he would have yowled loudly enough to distract from the show anyway.
As I said, my coworker had to leave after three episodes, and as I was showing him out, he said how much he enjoyed them, and that he wanted to watch more, etc. We were saying goodbye's at the door, and I thought he was about to open the door and leave, since he was looking nervously at my cat, who seemed ready to pounce out the door, so I picked Vincent up. However, we talked a bit more, and there was a moment that he seemed kind of awkward and hesitant about leaving. I have come up with a list of possible reasons why:
1. He was unsure how to really say goodbye with finality.
2. He had something to say, then forgot.
3. He wanted to hug me, but wasn't sure it was appropriate/I had a cat in my arms.
4. He wanted to kiss me (*brain explodes from joy*), but wasn't sure it was appropriate/I had a cat in my arms.
5. There was no actual hesitation/awkwardness, and I just made the whole thing up.
I ended up having a dream last night that #4 was correct, so that makes three dreams I've had in which we've made out. haha
I'm really thinking about asking him on a date, but I'm not sure. I'm not so much afraid of potential rejection as I am potential awkwardness after a rejection. What if he finds it weird to work with me after that? What if he doesn't want to watch Doctor Who with me anymore after that? I definitely don't want to put an obstacle in front of someone's ability to become obsessed with DW. I'm kind of considering showing up at work when I know he's working (he told me last night after I told him I was off today) and asking him then, that way we have the weekend (since he very rarely works the weekend) to get over the awkwardness of a rejection and be fine by Monday if we work together then. I think I'll talk to a friend or two and get their opinion. And, you know, also figure out specifics for a potential date. haha
Man, it's a good thing I decided to post happenings separately! I rambled on quite a bit about this. haha
See yeh next post. =P
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